Home Sweet Home

So yesterday Luis and I had a great day in Austin! We started out by going to Whole Foods downtown, which is oh so nice! Then we walked all around downtown, ate at Hickory Street Bar and Grill, I had an avacado veggie burger....yum! Then we caught a trolley and went to the UT campus and walked around the whole thing, tiring! Especially in boots! ha. Went to the co-op and then took a trolley back to 6th to walk back up to our car at Whole Foods, that was at 7pm. Then we went home changed and went to eat at Fonda San Miguel off Burnet and North Loop. SOOO GOOD!! I had this dish with grilled onions and poblano peppers sliced on the bottom, then that was topped with a corn tortilla then a black bean sauce covered all of that then topped with gulf shrimp! It was Awesome!! It was so nice to have a day and night to ourselves which we really havent ever done, it's nice having Grandmommie here to always keep Ashlyn for us too.
We are leaving tonight to drive back to KY. We will really miss Austin. But I should be back in January. It has been nice to sleep in every morning that I've been here! My mom has been up with Ashlyn and fed her breakfast all before I woke up but it's back to reality now! It was nice while it lasted!

HookEm Horns

Can't say much for the UT game on Friday but at least we had a good time dressing up for it! Just had to show you her outfit, she even has a UT bow! My little cheerleader!

Happy Thanksgiving

We had a great Thanksgiving. We went out to my aunt's lakehouse in Spicewood and had a full house. Not only did my family come, but Luis' family did too and to have both families come together during the holidays is really something to be thankful for.

The most I am thankful for is my family: my husband is amazing. Everything he does he does for us. My daughter, she has been the light of my life and I couldnt imagine life without her. My parents who support me thru everything, I know if I need them, they are always there. And all my brothers and sisters, I love them all dearly.

Our happy family

My Sisters Lisa and Lacy

My beautiful baby girl

Introducing......

I have been trying for awhile now to get one of my best friends in the world of blogging/myspace/photoalbums, just anything to keep in touch even though we email often and finally she did it!! Most of you from Brentwood remember Nicci King, we were connected at the hip in early high school. Well she finally committed to blogging so here is her link for those of you who know her! Thanks Nicci for doing this just for me! :)
http://jnm247.blogspot.com/

Have Faith

This was emailed to me today and more than other days it touched me so I wanted to share.

Everything that is going wrong in your life today shall be well with youthis year. You have been destined to make it and you shall surely achieve all your goals this year. For the remaining months of this year (2007),all your agonies will be diverted and victory and prosperity will beincoming in abundance. Today God has confirmed the end of your sufferings, sorrows, and pains because HE that sits on the throne has remembered you.He has taken away the hardships and given you JOY. He will never let you down.I knocked at heaven's door this morning, God asked me... My child! What can I do for you? And I said, "Father, please protect and bless thosereading this message"... God smiled and answered... Request granted.

I need a change

Today was awful. I woke up with the worst cramping ever! I am not going to be too graphic but I was miserable this morning. I went to the DR to see if my body had eliminated everything because I was almost sure it had! But NO, my cervix is still closed with everything inside, how I don't know. We were going to schedule the surgery for today but with Luis' schedule Wed is still best, bc he can take off that day and the rest of the week. By mid afternoon I was feeling okay again. Thankfully she sent me home with medicine but I have been sticking to my Tylenol it has seemed to help alot. I don't think I need Percocet just yet but I have it in case I do need it.

I'm just so ready for this to be over with. So I can put it behind me and start fresh again. I feel like I need a change. Not sure if that means, a new haircut, which I kinda want to chop it!! Or a new take on life like maybe going to the gym, getting all this fat off my body since I no longer have an excuse to harbor it anymore. I cant say it's baby fat, my baby is 17 months old, I've had plenty of time to work on it. So once this is all said and done I just want to find a new hobby, feel good about myself, fit into my skinny clothes!!!

It's been a long day so I'm off to bed now! Thanks for letting me vent! And thank you all for all your kind words and support and prayers! I have the greatest friends!! MUAH!

If you first don't succeed, try try again.

Most of you already know so I felt okay to write about it. I went to the Doctor on Friday for my first OB appt since I found out I was pregnant but the 2 days before I had started feeling discomfort , then cramping, then bleeding so I was a bit concerned. The DR did the ultrasound and I did have a miscarriage. The baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks and I was already 10 weeks along. I was not ready for the dreaded news that deep down I knew may come, I didn't think it would happen to me, but who does? I know it's very common, most of my friends have gone through this but needless to say it's still a hard issue to face and deal with , emotionally and more so physically. Because I was seen on a Friday not much could be done as far as a DNC just yet, so my body has already started the process of elimination. I have been cramping pretty hard, mostly last night. If I lay down and remain still I rarely cramp, but if I have to get up and move around it comes on harder and more frequent. Today wasn't as bad. I started taking the rapid release Extra Strength Tylenol which has seemed to help. I plan to go see the DR on Monday to see if in fact I have passed it on my own, if not I'll have the DNC surgery on Wednesday.

As far as emotions, I was very sad , seeing that image on the screen of a baby but with no life to it was very hard, but I have put my faith and trust in God and I know that He has a plan for me and knows what He's doing. I know my body knew something just wasn't right. I really wanted this baby. I don't know when we can try again, with the deployment coming up in January, our time may have run out. I just didn't want Ashlyn and the next baby 3+ years apart but I guess I cant really control that at this point.

Thank you all for your sweet and encouraging words, for your thoughts, and for your prayers. God will not bring me to something that he can not get me through so I will be just fine and this just means back to trying :) That's always fun right? ha

Love you all!

Happy Halloween..MEOW

Ashlyn had a great time last night Trick or Treating and eating her lollipops. After we handed out candy we went over to Luis' aunt's house. 2 wiskers on each cheek and one dot on the nose was all we could accomplish on her face, she would not sit still long enough or let us continue so there you have it! ha. Enjoy!